I have been slowly gaining back every single ounce that I have lost in the past. I tell us, being a mom to twins is insane. The sleeping, eating, schedule, sicknesses, diapers, allergies...it is just exhausting. The lack of sleep, plus the overabundance of new responsibilities has played a major role in my allowing myself to push my health and fitness to the bottom of the priorities. Well, after many tears and frustrations and jeans that don't fit, I decided to get back on the wagon.
This morning I greeted the day at 5:13. My hubby scared the crap out of me when he woke me up before my alarm. He was afraid I didn't set it. And off to the gym I went. The day was difficult. At first I was HUNGRY. I couldn't eat enough. But I stuck to my plan and drank A LOT of water.
After lunch I beat the craving I was having for the Strawberry Cheesecake that was calling my name from my fridge. With a little help from my husband (he is my biggest cheerleader) I was able to sidestep temptation.
There have been multiple times today that I was ready to give up, but I didn't. I remain diet coke free and haven't consumed any sugar. My biggest fear is that I will never succeed in this quest...my life long quest to be fit and healthy. I am afraid I don't find myself to be valuable enough to keep at it. I strive for the strength and courage I need to keep going. This is a life style change...not a one day, or a week or a month...LIFE!!!
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