I guess the beginning is a good place to start. I have an addiction...to food. I think a lot of people do and don't realize it. I didn't realize it, until the beginning of this past summer. I was reading a book recommended by Oprah, WOMEN FOOD AND GOD, I can't even remember the name of the author, but her words changed my perspective on my weight problem. Every time I am stressed, or frustrated, or plain and simple life doesn't go the way I want it...I eat. And I don't eat a carrot, I eat a Large Bag of M&M's have a Diet Coke, and the world just seems better. Then reality hits. I ATE A WHOLE BAG OF M&M'S!!!! WHAT??? WHY???I How can I do this to myself? Why do I feel like I am not strong enough to face the challenges of life without some kind of chocolate and a Diet Coke? Where is my faith? Who is "in charge" here? I am obviously not putting my faith in an all knowing God, I am putting my faith into M&M's and a Diet Coke. All because they can get me through it. I have come to realize that they don't do their job very well, meaning, they don't get me through it. They just prolong the inevitable. I have to face the realities of life. Children embarrass everyone in Wal-mart. No Husband has the ability to read minds. No Mother is perfect, so why do I feel like I need to be? No home is ever spotless. No ones bills are paid every month on time. Why do I really think a bag of M&M's and a Diet Coke will solve these problems? The won't. That is my job. I have decided that it is time to do my job.
This blog will contain my trials and triumphs. My moments of GLORY and also my moments of regret. But hopefully by the end of this journey, I will be a better person. A Woman of Faith and Strength. With the ability to get through the day without an M&M.
